First post in 2026

 This is my first post in 2026. Lot happened by in year 2025. Many things I learnt, unlearnt.

Sometimes I don't know myself what I want from life?

1. What is my ambition?

2. What are my goals ?

3. How do I fulfil them?

4. What is love? 

5. Why I sometimes feel hollow from inside?

6. What is the purpose of life? 

7. How do I enjoy each moment?

Dukh

 Is bar meri galti hai. Aaj din bhar maine 2 galti ki. 

Not to say that

Would have taken that in light spirit

Keep yourself in lighter spirit always.

Forgive and Forget. Have less ego. 

Confession

 Abhi ek duty me hun. Achha lag rha hai. Abhi kuch prashasnik sudhar ki bate chal rhi thi. Mujhe bhi kuch is pahal me kuch karna hai. 

Khushi

 Aj samjh me aya ki pyaar kya hota hai aur khusi kya hai. Peeche mud ke dekhta hu , aj mere paas wo sab hai jo mujhe chahiye tha. Ek job chahiye thi jisme mai logo ki madad kar saku. Aur wo sab chahiye tha jisse mujhe khusi mil sake. Aaj bhagwan par vishwas ho gya ki wo hain, wo hame sab dete hain jo hame chahiye. bas intejaar karna hota hai aur ankhe khuli rakhni hoti hai. Jab bhi man me nirasha aye aur lage ki ye mere sath kya ho gya? Tab bhagwan ki madad mangni chahiye . Wo hi hain jo hamesha hamaare sath rehte he aur madad karte rehte hain. 

Kanto Ki Chubhan

 Is duniya me kho se gue hum,

Apna Vajood pehchan na paaye hum

Chubhte hue kaanto me apne seene ko paya har dam,

lahu nikalta raha

laal rang dekhte rahe hum,

kuchi bhi na kar paye hum .

Jab se hosh sambhaala

kuch paane ki chahat me 

hamesha mashakkat karte rahe hum

kabhi haasil hua

kabhi nahi

fir bhi haar na maane hum.

Seene me ye kasi chubhan hai

is kaante ke dard se nikalna chahte the hum

fir bhi yeh chubhta raha

is seene se nikaal na paye hum.

Ab bas yahi hai sahaara

kanto ki chubhan me jeena seekh gye hum,

use nikal kar koi fayda nhi,

kyuki inhi kanto se banta he jivan. 

Happiness

Sometimes a decision requires courage. You may fear over the consequences of the action. You brood over them. Finally leading to no action. Also, crisis of conscience may jeopardise your effort to take action.

According to Bhagwad Gita, inaction should be avoided. Consicence can be resolved through clear thinking and letting the muddy water to settle.

Also, once you take action, you will feel deep sense of satisfaction and happiness.  

At this point, you have no fear and no worries of consequences. Also, whatever may be the result, you will feel : this is the best course to take.

Disappointment

 Feel very bad now.