Confession

 Abhi ek duty me hun. Achha lag rha hai. Abhi kuch prashasnik sudhar ki bate chal rhi thi. Mujhe bhi kuch is pahal me kuch karna hai. 

Khushi

 Aj samjh me aya ki pyaar kya hota hai aur khusi kya hai. Peeche mud ke dekhta hu , aj mere paas wo sab hai jo mujhe chahiye tha. Ek job chahiye thi jisme mai logo ki madad kar saku. Aur wo sab chahiye tha jisse mujhe khusi mil sake. Aaj bhagwan par vishwas ho gya ki wo hain, wo hame sab dete hain jo hame chahiye. bas intejaar karna hota hai aur ankhe khuli rakhni hoti hai. Jab bhi man me nirasha aye aur lage ki ye mere sath kya ho gya? Tab bhagwan ki madad mangni chahiye . Wo hi hain jo hamesha hamaare sath rehte he aur madad karte rehte hain. 

Kanto Ki Chubhan

 Is duniya me kho se gue hum,

Apna Vajood pehchan na paaye hum

Chubhte hue kaanto me apne seene ko paya har dam,

lahu nikalta raha

laal rang dekhte rahe hum,

kuchi bhi na kar paye hum .

Jab se hosh sambhaala

kuch paane ki chahat me 

hamesha mashakkat karte rahe hum

kabhi haasil hua

kabhi nahi

fir bhi haar na maane hum.

Seene me ye kasi chubhan hai

is kaante ke dard se nikalna chahte the hum

fir bhi yeh chubhta raha

is seene se nikaal na paye hum.

Ab bas yahi hai sahaara

kanto ki chubhan me jeena seekh gye hum,

use nikal kar koi fayda nhi,

kyuki inhi kanto se banta he jivan. 

Happiness

Sometimes a decision requires courage. You may fear over the consequences of the action. You brood over them. Finally leading to no action. Also, crisis of conscience may jeopardise your effort to take action.

According to Bhagwad Gita, inaction should be avoided. Consicence can be resolved through clear thinking and letting the muddy water to settle.

Also, once you take action, you will feel deep sense of satisfaction and happiness.  

At this point, you have no fear and no worries of consequences. Also, whatever may be the result, you will feel : this is the best course to take.

Disappointment

 Feel very bad now. 

This moment

 This moment is painful as well as beautiful. This moment I have no ambition. I have nothing to aspire. I have no regrets of past. I do not recall any painful past moments. 

But at this moment I am sitting  comfortably on a plastic chair typing this. I am enjoying the music of Mohit Chauhan. I have running fan over me giving me lighter and cooler air. 

I dont know what I will do next moment. Whether I will get up and fetch a glass of cold water? Or I will watch over the balcony? My mind is hinting at both. 

But at this moment I want to continue this writing with ear plugs attached. I wonder how else I can enjoy this moment? 

 I walked alone on the grass wet with dew drops

With no one beside me to hold my hands

With someone's voice always ringing in my ears,

and someone's anger tone always creating bewilderment,

And I walk, 

touching the wet grass, cold dew drops

thinking about someone. 

As I walk further, I feel ,

She is walking away from me,

With no apparent reason. 

With hesitation, I ask 

Do you want to touch the cold grass too with your feet?

She says, I want to go away,

The grass holds no meaning for me,

I see grass on the other side, 

full of life ..

She bids me good bye. 

I can not ask her to stay ,

but I feel, grass was greener this side !